I was given a sum of money from my Grandma for my birthday. This was an unexpected surprise and was very generous of her. It's been a really long time since I've been given a sum of money to spend any way I want, and I'm having a really difficult time doing so! What is wrong with me?
When I lived in at home and was making my own money, I had no problem spending it! When payday rolled around I would get my check, cash it (since I didn't have a bank account at the time), go out to Baja Fresh with Lauren and Heather, buy some clothes that I wanted (not on sale), buy an ice cream machine (cause it seemed like fun to own an ice cream machine), go get my haircut (for the 2nd time that month)...you get the picture. Now I'm married and I'm a mother of two, and suddenly I feel totally guilty for spending money on myself!
I have literally spent my birthday money 100 different ways in my head! How sad. I feel like I have to be so careful, because it isn't every day you get money that isn't earmarked for a bill or for Christmas gifts or to buy clothes for...the kids.
So, what should I do? It's been almost a week and I haven't even cashed it yet!
Here are a few of my ideas:
1.) Get my hair cut and highlighted.
2.) Buy some cool and fun Christmas gifts for JB and the kids
3.) Get JB a gym membership for the winter months
4.) Buy coordinating outfits for everyone for our Christmas picture
5.) Buy some cutesy decor (Fall or Christmas) for our house
6.) Rent a rug shampoo-er and clean my carpets
7.) Save it
8.) Pick a new hobby and get all of the necessary "stuff" for it (I've been considering digital scrapbooking, but hadn't had the money to do it)
9.) Update my casual wardrobe to the year 2000
So many choices! What to do? Any ideas as to how I decide how to spend it? Maybe I should just mail it back to Grandma and say, "This gift was too difficult. Thank you anyway. Love, Amy"